Densen Complex 2

P33

Thanks for your help up until today.

Suicide note

We have decided to put an end to our lives as of today.

P34

Bridge

Rina: No, I bet the chances of failing is high. / And I don’t want to suffer.

Car

Michi: The person who runs us over / might have a child our age…

Rina: If we think too hard, it’s going to get complicated

Rina: But / I don’t want to cause trouble for 300 people by stopping traffic and have people read about us angrily in the newspaper

I guess we have to do our wrists…

Yeah, we don’t want to involve others / but I feel bad of having to let him clean up after us

P35

Dad died / when we couldn’t even call him “dad” yet. // When our new dad came, our mom left us a little while after that / when we were in grade school.

Michi and I are twins / but we’re very different types. // “Dad” is lucky // He has / so much fun with us both.

Rina: Let’s go home and take a bath, / while “dad” isn’t there.

Michi: And we should choose our favorite clothes?

P36

14 years…that’s pretty short, right?

You think? I dunno…

Rina: Yawn…

Michi: I wonder why I’m so sleepy… / Rina, can I sleep for now?

Rina: Yeah, you can lean on me

Michi sleeps a lot these days

Rina: Even at a time like this. // I’m sleep deprived too…

I don’t know if she’s understanding the situation completely

P37

Rina: I think the one-piece dress you bought at Pinky the other day looks best on you. // What should I wear? The blue camisole or the white knit with the logo in it?

Michi: I think the yellow one you lent me is a good one

I bet they both look like blood

P38

Rina: It was fun // when mom was here and we all took a bath together

Michi: You promised you wouldn’t talk about that

Rina: Michi… // I’m glad you’re here with me, Michi // So, it was a pretty bad life // but it had it’s good moments thanks to you

Michi: Same here

P39

Rina: Is there // anything you wanted to eat or do?

Michi: I haven’t had any desires like that for a while. // Isn’t it the same / for you too?

P40

Isn’t it the same / for you too?

Yeah

Really…?

It’s almost time. Are you ready?

Rina: I wonder why / I’m not scared at all

Because I’m with Michi?

Rina: Oh

P41

Rina: Michi!

Michi: What’s wrong?

Rina: A stain…

Michi: Oh, maybe it was when I borrowed it…sorry

Rina: Ugh…You did the same on my skirt the other day too…but whatever // just be careful next time ok?

P42

Michi: Rina? // Do you really plan on dying? // Next time… / “next time” doesn’t exist // do you understand?

Rina: I can’t help it if I don’t want to die

P43

The end of the summer vacation

P44

Rina: what? // your period?

Michi: yeah…

Rina: wow / really? / congrats!

We were very slow to get our periods // as if our bodies were trying not to become adults. // As all of our classmates started to look different // I was worried that our bodies were becoming something different compared to others.

Michi: Rina… // it’s nothing to be happy about! / I might…get pregnant! // hey! / what should I do?

P45

Rina: It is something to be happy about // Michi / it means that you’re alive and growing

All those girls that say “My mom made red rice and it pissed me off” can go to hell // Children think it is only natural for parents to love them // and they get angry when that love isn’t given to them in the way they want it. // Michi / I // was really // happy

P46

Rina: Let’s run away // Yeah, if we tell someone they might help us. // It’ll be better than the way things are now.

Michi: What // what are you saying? / Tell someone? // That our father is playing with every part of our body? // No! / I don’t want anyone to know / I rather…

P47

Michi: I rather die

Rina: If you didn’t think of that / I probably would never have thought of dying. // Nope, / I always thought about running away from here

P48

Rina: Why do we have to be the ones to die! / We should kill him! / But you said you didn’t want to… // Because you’re scared, // is it my fault?

Because Michi is here / I can do anything // but // because Michi is here / I can’t be free

P49

Do I think // Michi is in my way? // If she wasn’t here I could have run away. // But // if she wasn’t here I might have lost my mind sooner.

P50

Michi: Sorry // I’m sorry Rina // I’ve suffered everyday too, / but if running away fails and it gets even worse / I can’t keep my sanity. // I’m scared that it will get worse if we run away / so I thought if we split our suffering it would be okay. // I knew / that you couldn’t leave me and I kept you here

P51

Michi: I’m sleepy…

Rina: Michi?

Michi: Sorry…I’m going to sleep // I can do it alone when I wake up // so you can go / sorry to leave you alone…

Rina: No… / what are you saying?

Oh no // she no longer has the will to live // her body // is running away from life

Rina: Michi…

P52

Sorry Michi

P53

P54

Dear dad in heaven,

If you were still alive none of this would have happened (I’m going to hold a small grudge against you), // but // I am grateful that you were able to give me someone to feel more love for than myself.

That person, Michi, says “it’s over” // but Michi and I haven’t even started anything // so I don’t think anything is over. // It’s okay // to //believe that right?

P55

What I am doing / might just be delaying our death a little bit // and we might just end up having to find a “new dad” to depend on

Rina: Michi / wake up / walk to the station with me

Michi: Mmmm

I might think of Michi // as a burden again

Michi: Sleepy…

Rina: come on…

P56

But look // if we had jumped in front of that car we wouldn’t have known // how beautiful the moon is tonight