Densen Complex 5

P111

BLUE

When our family still used the same set of chopsticks that comes in different colors // and when we used to all sleep together in one room, // Makoto and I were not very close.

P112

Makoto.

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You cut your hair? // I couldn’t recognize you at first.

Makoto: Oniichan.

P113

Has mother gotten over her cold?

Makoto: Yes. She’s going to get her license soon so she’s working hard. / How’s father? Is he well?

He said his work is going well.

Makoto: Really!? Good…

P114

It’s been 6 years since our parents got divorced. // During those years, Makoto and I saw each other / on average 4 times a year at first and currently, we see each other twice a month.

We hated the tension between our parents when we used to meet with them present // so we started to see each other just the two of us more often.

Then, little by little // something started to change between Makoto and me. // It was as if I was being eaten inside without me realizing it…

P115

Oniichan!

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Makoto: I’m not sure if I should go with this blue one or this one.

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I like the one you’re wearing…

Makoto: Really? // Then / I’ll choose this one.

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But I don’t know. // It’s just the color I like…

Makoto: I wanted to choose the one you liked.

P116

Makoto is too honest and I’m frantic in trying to run away.

Oh // this one is nice too.

Please don’t make that face… // What do you want me to do?

P117

Cashier: It’s 29,400 yen.

Here.

Makoto: Really? / Are you sure?

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Yeah / it’s your birthday and I wanted to get you something. // I’m glad there was something you liked.

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Makoto: Thanks. // Oniichan.

P118

Makoto: Mother said that she found father’s coral necktie pin. // She wants to see you, so she asked you to come home and pick it up… // She should be home soon…

Ok / I’ll go.

P119

Makoto: Even though your furniture is gone // we keep your room the way it was for when you want to come home.

P120

You’re not coming in?

Makoto: I can come in…?

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Makoto: You used to get so mad when I came in. // Can I come in now that it’s not really your room anymore? // Or is it because we’re no longer family…?

P121

Oh no. // I have to

I’ve never

Run…

Thought that you’re no longer my sister. // Makoto!?

P122

P123

Makoto: I’m sorry… / I’m sorry Oniichan… // I know you pretended not to notice. // But I’ve been suffering. // Oniichan. // Do you ignore me because you don’t like me?

P124

P125

P126

Makoto… // wait…

Makoto: What?

Sorry, Makoto… // I can’t do it with you…

P127

Makoto: Why?

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Makoto: Why? / But I finally…

Makoto… // I’m sorry… // But it’s because you’re important to me.

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This will just make you suffer later. / How can you make me do this knowing that?

Makoto: What… / are you saying?

P128

Makoto: If I like you // and you like me…that’s not enough? There’s nothing that can hurt me. // It hurt me more when you used to ignore me.

Makoto.

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Even if I like you, it’s a taboo in society. // We can’t tell our parents and no one will understand.

Makoto: I don’t care…

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No. // You’re important to me. // So / I can’t do anything that will make you unhappy.

P129

But if you still want to do it // then we’ll do it just this once. // But I’ll never see you again.

P130

Makoto: That’s…

If you // want to be with me forever, you have to forget everything.

Makoto: That’s not fair… // you’re making it my fault…

What do you want to do?

P131

I really won’t see you anymore. // Are you ok with that?

P132

I’m / leaving. // We’ll never…

Makoto: I’ll call you again.

Makoto…

Makoto: It’s a promise you made by yourself // but I won’t keep it.

P133

Makoto: You run away / and I chase you. // It’s the same as always. // Oniichan / I’ll decide // my own happiness. // You can run all you want. // Oniichan // I’ll never give up on you.

Ahh // Makoto

P134

I’ve given up my future // in exchange for love. // I can’t see where I’m going at all. // But it’s inevitable. // We knew it was a poisonous fruit // but we ate it anyway.