I'm not allowed to talk about it, but I got it from the government.
Routine stuff does get boring so - change things up once in a while. You might not be able to do it on the job per-se but maybe on something weekends, Milly.
I think I just wanna travel somewhere. Maybe Chicago, London again, France, Norway, or another city or country. Paris looks cheaper than France though, and less time intensive.
There was a time in my life where i started thinking about death and the meaning behind life. You know, all those philosophical questions. I don't know how i actually started thinking about it, cuz fortunately nothing had happened to any one close to me, so i guess it was probably something i saw on tv. I was still really young, around 14/15, and i remember that for a while, i started hating going to sleep because i would always end up thinking about it. I would even start thinking about possible scenarios that could happen in my life and be scared of all that.
And the problem is that i couldn't really come to a consensus. Sometimes i could see death as something natural and honestly as something that i shouldn't be worrying about,but then there would also exist those times when everything would seem hopeless. As if there exists something bigger than me, something way bigger, that at some point will swallow me and have me destroyed for all eternity.
Eternity is such a strong word, we can't really grasp the meaning of such concept. But the ideia of death really meaning that that person or that soul or wathever, will never ever exist once more, is what really scares me.
Theorically i am supposed to be a christian, but i never really believed in any of that, and that was the reason why i ended dropping catechism. Of course that, and the fact that Pokemon aired around the time i had to go to that
So, i think that i can safely say that i am more atheist than anything else. But even though i don't believe in any religion, i respect everyone's beliefs, at least to a certain point. I mean, even at some point i want that some of those belives end up to be true. It seems way better than being dead for all eternity.
What i just have some problems understanding, is how some people can blindly accept wathever anyone else teaches to them. And in my opinion that's something wrong. And i ain't talking about someone believing there exist hell and heaven, or that there exist and entity called "God", i have problem is how religion can be molded into something that makes some people think they are better than others. I have a problem seeing people use religion as a pretext for them to think they are the best persons in the world. This is just something that disgust me. People say shit like "oh you don't believe in god, so you are going to hell!", or, "i am such a nice person, cuz i go to church every sunday", when all they do is shit every fucking day of the week. This is what bothers me the most.
I have also a problem understand how most people believe in things, that have no single proof of being real, but it doesn't really bother me, because i know how much it can help someone to have faith, specially during hard times. It's always nice to think that someday we can be reunited with the people we love, even if deep down i think that faith is prolly just created on a lie.
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I don't believe i could express myself that clearly, but meh
I wouldn't be able to get diamond anyway. I don't even care that i can't play in the future, i am just sad it had to be this exact week.
I skipped a class to go home and play and then this happened
At least i hope i will still be able to uni related stuff. I am worried my computer might crash still this semester, i will really need it a lot this semester
... and? I like touring.