Nah. I've left my previous job and found a job that is paying me way better than what I was making.
Anyway, the "chemical thing" is the culprit, not the urge to imitate /o/
I confess I'm beginning to think I should start proofreading what I write, whether on this forum or project or whatnot. :|
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Anyways....as I understood it, you guys were implying peer pressure for appearance's sake, when it's not that at all imo...
Last edited by benelori; May 12, 2013 at 12:10 PM.
Fap on the kiss?
Peer pressure isn't just peer pressure. Most of the time, you don't do something unless you want to. It's not like fooling around/dating is something most people have to be coerced or influenced to do. That's why I brought up the chemical thing. People are horny!
I think what Gary said could apply more to why I feel lonely/like I want a girlfriend. Nothing to do with peer pressure, just how seeing them act makes you feel like you're missing out.
Last edited by xi0; May 12, 2013 at 11:27 PM.
I confess..I am a little sad..trying to remain in control and it also helps that I am reading a new series..it's quite interesting.
Anyway,I'll summarize this..
my dad has been in out the hospital over the last couple months..It began when he starting peeing blood..a lot of blood..till he became anemic..
So, he was admitted to the hospital..Found out, it was because he had a kidney stone. Had an operation to remove it..He was okay for a few months..but the same problem started again. It was worse then before..Found out he had a tumor in his stomach..another damn surgery..After he stayed in the hospital for a few days, he was okay to go home. He was really weak and frail , and still weak..He couldn't consume or digest food very well. Only light and small portion of food could his body digest. So, he stayed out the hospital for about three weeks until yesterday..
yesterday, he spend most of the day vomiting and had very bad stomach..He was taken to hospital again..he had another surgery as soon as possible because his intestines were twisted. I really hate this,it's one thing after another..He's really weak right now..it makes me think he might just go..my mother died 4 years ago..in a similar fashion..she kept getting sick until they figured out her type of cancer had already spread too far in her body..I don't understand why they don't diagnosis these illnesses faster..Damn it all.
it really hurts, up until this point I have been in control and trying to be hopeful despite my siblings saying he might die soon..I ignored it or block it out..But I really can't this..Although, I can't express how I feel like usual..I can only tell people about the situation..
it's unusual for me to write this here or even tell people how feel..I actually feel like deleting everything I just wrote now..
The worst thing is, I haven't been around..I missed his last two surgeries..I relocated at the end of last year..So, I could focus on school because family complications were causing me to lose focus on school..I lose focus too easily..I thought it would it be easier in a different environment, in a different state but I can't change how I feel. Still it did help to a certain point but why do I feel like this now..?
I am good at remaining in control..in these situations..It is why my family says I am heartless..little do they know..I just don't know how to show affection or express my feelings but I still care..
Last edited by liductan; May 13, 2013 at 11:20 AM.