A little confession of mine to end this day. My "ill" dad is going on a med. cure for at least three weeks and I don't feel anything at all, if anything I'm relieved that he's gone out of the house and away from my mother for that time. As I had to learn over the last couple years, he was pretty much a bastard towards my mother most of his life[that's ~40 yrs by now], got her five times pregnant, let her do 99% of the work at home, her own work, even while pregnant, even after she had thee miscarriages. Always thought he was the mighty patriarch[well he did], only to blame someone else once his business has gone downhill, even heard he blamed me for spending too much because I bought one freaking pair of shoes in one of the three vacations travels[two of which consisted of visiting relatives ] we had while I grew up. My mom nearly even got some jail time because that piece of shit didn't stand his ground once during all those years, especially when he really needed to, being the boss while letting her do nearly all of the work and bear the responsibility. What I remember of my time with him? Sitting in his home office all day long, sometimes letting me and my friends go into 16/18+ movies and that's all the positive stuff I can come up with right now. Also he's so damn stubborn, no other presented solution, even if one presents it in front of his eyes would be accepted by him, his way is the right one. Now they just live together out of necessity, but would rather kill each other. Pretty sure she would be happy instead of letting out a tear. Even if he takes a dozen pills a day and is slowly developing some form of memory problems, I don't want to care, but there is that picture of him from my childhood and me wanting the best for people, my pity that keeps me from turning away completely.
Good enough? Hm feels pretty good to have told it to someone else, not sure if that's gonna change something, I will never forgive him for how he treated my mother, with words and the threat of violence and likely a bit of real violence here and there too. He does a shitty action and the next day acts like nothing happened, ohhh it's upsetting to even think about it, good night guys/gals.
Last edited by Schabrak; August 20, 2013 at 06:55 PM.
True, but it depends, I guess? It can muffle the noise!
Sorry for your dad being a douchebag though. :\
I'm going to stay around my boyfriend for a while and see how that turns out. He'll be living with his past dorm roommate when the guy comes back from the US (it's all about 'Merica). It's hard for me to stand the guy, but I prefer that over what I'm getting here. I'll move my PC and some other things. I'll clean, I'll shop, heck, I'll cook even. I just want out.
Jeez, it's that horrible, huh? What are you gonna do if it doesn't turn out well, which I hope it does?
I told my father that he doesn't know how to communicate normally. He didn't really hear me well, but said the same thing to me because of me arguing... Sheesh. And that happened because I asked them to be more quiet, because I can hear everything, their shouting, the TV. And my dad said "you're annoying us" (bad translation). Typical every day attitude, but I can't and won't handle it when I'm supposed to be working.
I'm also very emotional and it's easy to have a breakdown in such a scenario. I try to communicate, I keep everything in mind, I try to understand. The more time passes, the more I feel like my father doesn't really know me. It's frustrating.
Good luck with that, really hope everything works out for you.
Also, now I'm imagining you and your boyfriend sleeping together. What's the trigger for that shoot-me smiley? ?
Never mind. Was just trying to make you feel better. <_< But all the best, I better see a picture of you soon with a biiiig smile!
I just found another job and got accepted too.
I have my first (and only) training this coming Friday.
But I'm totally not suited for the job and I don't know what to do..
My father just text messaged me, asking if I needed any financial help with school this semester.
He offered without me even saying something, just out of the blue.