I smell your Texan accent coming out.
The sad thing is that I'm immitading Garyby saying that. xd
I confess I hate my life majorly right now. Besides the usual grind of junior year physics & math classes and three research projects, I'm managing a club of mostly unmotivated twits. I've also got a possible research opp lost because the prof is a whimsical jerk and I had a busy spring break. In order to get money for my project (and, in turn, my family, who is facing possible foreclosure because the lender is a motherfucking cocksucker who can't process paperwork to save their asses).
I haven't had time to do anything fun like read a book or play a game or watch something. I'm just in the grind.
I have a homework due tomorrow that I haven't really started, a lab with a partner who is too neurotic to get lecture notes instead of abandoning lab, a singing course which I no longer feel motivated to do, and a get-together with a bunch of prospective freshman that I signed up for because I am a fucking idiot. Then I have a homework due Friday, a faculty-student lunch that I have to order the pizza for at noon on Friday, a creepy person surveying our property Saturday, and a hackathon on Sat/Sun.
Now I just found out that I have to get two letters of rec by Sunday for a necessary application. FUCK. I do not have time for this shit.
I'm really too aggravated. My attention span feels like it has been drawn and quartered. I can do jackshit right now except check out websites randomly, and it PISSES ME OFF.
I write alot shit on face book and other websides and then people ask me that was so romantic what you said about your wife anf I'm. Like what the fuck are you talking about? , what you wrote one facebook and then i go to check it out and its true.. i got to stay away the computer while drinking..
I confess that I made this personal confession via mobile but closed the browser thinking I submitted the post and I had to do something-else.
Come to find-out that nothing was submitted xD and this made feel a bit... well, I'm not sure how to say. I don't feel like re posting or rather retyping out everything.
I confess I did something ballsy and stupid while driving today, but nothing happened. I confess I'm disturbed I wasn't really scared or felt scared for a while after, or at least my heart pounding, as if I was used to it.
I confess that my parents are acting really strange and it's kind of depressing me.
The last couple times that they called me they were putting so much emphasis on me getting my degree sooner, getting a real job(I only have an internship), stuff like that.
And today, after we talked, they forgot to hang up... so I overheard my mother saying something to my father like: "he's really unmotivated with college". That made me so sad.
The truth is, I've never been so happy on college as I am right now... since I got my internship I've been working with practical stuff that I see only as theory on college and it really lit a fire on me(I'm too lazy to study, but now I'm enjoying it a little more).
But these comments... It just make me want tell them to fuck off or whatever. The worse thing is, I'll probably graduate one semester late... and it will only give them more "argument" for this shit
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I called my brother and vented with him for a bit... I'm feeling better now.
How old is your brother?
Glad to hear you got it off your chest. <3
My brother is 34... he said they're old folks acting crazy and they're kind of broke, so that's why they're pressing me, that I shouldn't worry too much and just keep doing my thing.
I confess that I've been drinking so much tea, watching so much Merlin, and wathcing so much Downton Abbey that I'm starting to think in a British Accent.
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