Well, it is different for everyone. So far, I've found lots of matching things like how Gemini likes learning and is strong on communication. There are some that do not match too like how Gemini is a flirt and social butterfly. Well, my Gemini friends are surely social butterfly, but I am not one though I do have lots of friends and connections. I think I could have been a social butterfly if a certain event didn't happen, but what has happened has happened and today I am who I am now.
Either you really do not possess those qualities, or you actually possess them but never use it (therefore, you do not know that you have them; they exist in your unconscious).
Ah, so, those qualities are either suppressed or not, but existing in a way or another. Then, I guess, I shall be quite the oppressive type of person (which is who I am, for real) that I have pushed them all back into my subconscious or I'm not observing myself as properly as I should and cannot recognize their existence.
Each case sounds rational (=
It's just my theory though (which is derived from all the psychological theories I've learned). From what I've learned so far, all of us possess qualities that we either suppress or don't know the existence of. They can be brought into the surface if a certain event happen that force us to bring out those qualities. Of course, there is a possibility that those qualities will never make it into the surface.
That is unavoidable, I really detest letting outside events and other people leave slightest of an effect of me. The surfacing qualities will cease by time if I keep such attitude or so I believe. It's a minor possibility, if it exists at all, though.
As for the qualities that lay dormant, I can't say anything. I've never experienced such cases when my qualities are awaken by a certain event. I've only read stories. There was a story about a man who cared for nothing, not even his wife, and he had an affair with another woman. But when the time comes that he has to choose between sentencing his wife to death or take the blame, he chooses to sacrifice himself, revealing that he actually has compassion for other's life but unfortunately this quality shows up when it is a matter of life and death.
Perhaps reading this deep into who I am shaping up to be isn't such a good idea if its side effects are going to put this much of strain on my psychology.
I've just thought of cool words: We were born to struggle, to fight, to live.
It has a quite resembling tone, perhaps I'm associating with To Live is To Die
Now then, this should make the signature below. It sounds befitting to me (=
So, I decided that it's existing in reality and I should embraced it. I don't really know how it's been going so far, but at least, this is the right direction.
That alone is enough to keep the light of hope alive.
Maybe I will add "It's hard to go listen anime themes in Youtube without getting spoilers" somewhere, too.
Um, not so cool, but a beneficial information.
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Truth be told, you are stronger than I assumed you to be initially. It's been a while since I faced the strength of youth, though I can't even recall who that last one was..
Now, I wonder who that person was
Hey, nice one here
But I need something more nonchalant with little epic imbued in.
Let's say, Yuu Kanda and his ice-cold stare got the better of me
There are still a lot to learn, and I just to remind myself everyday about the philosophy of life.
That's great. But it'll be totally narcissistic of me to add a quote from myself down there
Unless you are a deity, you will keep breaking down at times, as all of us will. That fragility is in our nature for a reason unknown to me as of this day and I don't think I will ever truly know the answer.
The thing is, without getting a hold of your own view of life, you aren't going anywhere, so, even if you have to keep burying the words into your mind all the time, that's probably much better than not knowing those words at all.
In a way, you can say we have got to be the protagonist in our own story. No matter how many times we get struck down, we have to keep standing up back.
What an irony. We don't even have any supporting cast or antagonist for real out there. It's a story of one's own, decided solely by he himself.