You're right. I keep my awareness at the back of my mind, but I don't think I can let go of that mechanism yet. That's the only way I know to keep myself from regretting my choices. I've had enough regret in my life, and I don't want to put more of that burden on myself. I think it's better to be aware all the time rather than feeling regret later. Unless I can find better way to keep myself from making worse choices (since we will all make bad choices at some point in time), I think I like to keep it like this. Yes, it's energy-draining, but it doesn't affect my faith that much so it should be okay for now.
Indeed. That's why I just let my subconsciousness be, at least I try to control my consciousness.
You cannot quite avoid having regrets. At most, you would do your best for that goal, but it's bound to be a failure at some point.
Not a huge problem, though. If you are having regrets, it means you tried something and retrospectively came up with a better idea later on. If anything, this is some sort of improvement, as painful as it can be.
I don't have any regrets if I look back right now, but it's difficult for me to view what I did and what I didn't in a clear picture. I would give up this hazy life for a few regrets at this moment.
On the other hand, the energy-draining effect has already weakened me for good, so, I don't know if I can handle any sort of regretful memory in my current state. It's difficult to pick one up over the other for me.
And if your faith is unfazed by this burden, what else there is to say, right? You should cherish this strength of yours.
Yes, regret is unavoidable. Not to mention, there's still "what if". Every time you look back and see where your choices has taken you, you might regret some of your choices, or at least you'll ask the "what if" question. "What if I choose the other choice?" A dangerous question since whatever the answer is, it will take you to nowhere but more regrets. It can also make us not appreciating what we've gone through. But humans will never stop wondering, won't they?
I'll tell you my regret so you might be able to avoid it: Treating horribly the only person who cared for me when I was hurt because I thought no one cared for me. When I realized my mistake, the person was no longer in this world, so I could never ask forgiveness from him. If only I could ask his forgiveness, I might feel better now, but that's not the case. That's why I had to live with this as long as I live. I learn not to take things for granted, and to see beyond what I want to see. I was so blinded by my thought that no one cared, that I did not see the one who really cared beside me and I hurt him. So ironic, isn't it?
It's because my faith has been tested before for years, so yes, it is stronger now. It still can be shaken, but I always try to go back to the right path.
We can't take the time back. I'd regret something from the past if I had that kind of ability to time manipulation and still didn't use it. We aren't left with a choice when something becomes a part of history. It sounds odd when you say it like this, but it's the same for future. This life we are living is full of choices, but those choice aren't mean to become the essence of life itself. We just rush through the time. The beauty of the past is the ability that it grants to us; perception. The beauty of the moment is the joy. The beauty of the future is what keeps us going forward; hope. When you compare your choices and their consequences, they will most likely pale in comparison.
It's because being hurt and down gives you a false sense of security. That's what I call self-preservation. You move, act, see, all in a limited way, all the while you try to stay as how you are. That's one of the reasons, I think humans in general don't really understand the life. I used to think life was like a survival test in the deepest of the seas, but I can see now that it's irrelevant. If anything, it's a puddle of water we're struggling to stay on. In the end, you just have to stand up and move on.
So, as ironic as it is, I find it natural. Everyone cherishes sorrow and pain. That's our way of lowering our heightened limits in the world. We are bounded by being hurt, being in pain and we subconsciously wish to preserve it.
A friend whom I admire the most showed me the way through it, the illusions my mind was coming up with. I wonder if I really took a step in the right direction since we last saw each other. Not feeling like it, though. I feel like I have already come up with the answer (puddle of water) and still sit down idly like a little kid, waiting for a miracle for things to be initiated on their own. That's not how it's supposed to be, right?
though that decreases the chances of finding either, so I'm just trading one problem for another in the end
I agree on the part it's a personal opinion, life's always been interesting for me, but that doesn't stop me from being bored with it at times, but that on the other hand is just 'cause I never get down to doing the things I deem interesting
*Currently on page 6, continues reading.*
After all, a truth or a lie will definitely be uncovered at some point.
We manipulators exist to call the things the way when we're neither lying nor telling the truth
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I found couple of Haruhi Murakami's work in one of the bookstores in English. That will be nice to read, thank you
I'm not passing it I'm turning it into one I can deal with...
Part 2 out of 3
end part 2
what are your top 5 movies of all time?
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Part 3. Final
I'm definitely going to return to this thread when I feel the urge to read something cool. By this I'm referring to all the literature and poetry recommendations it contains.
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On a side note, I need to view your MAL, but the directions as to how to find it are written in something which is out of phase with the rest of the universe I'm living in, so its impossible for me to read them.
But I did see about Bieber.
You elaborate your question first
2. The Shawshank Redemption
3. Star Wars Episode III: The Empire Strikes Back
5. The Usual Suspects
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i found u haku...spam iz on...lol
What are you up to lately? How closely you follow latest fashions?