Dear MH Community,
I should've probably come out with an Explanation on Things much earlier but i was sort of busy sorting out all the "Friendly" DMs i got and with Life itself,which can be as we all know pretty rough. Sorry for not having the balls to come out with it sooner.
I confess on plagiarising in The Survival Poem Contest and the Dystopia Short Story Contest.
I know it's easy for me to just come here and try and explain and Apologize after this has been such a Hot Topic on here recently,and i don't even blame People for being heavily Disappointed and being Mad at me either.
Although i can imagine that most People were fed up with me on here already,i just made it worse by adding more negativity to it by doing this sort of Stuff.
Well first of all i want to apologize to
@riki , you were the Person that was supposed to win that Short Story Contest and not me i'm really sorry for taking this from you.
You're a great Story Writer and a really friendly Person from what i've seen of you on here so far,your Story was the best and you should've won that Contest.
I'd also like to apologize to all the Contestants that submitted their Works for the Survival Poem Contest,where i tried bringing in a Poem that i've heard and liked at the Local Community Center.
You All submitted wonderfully written and nicely thought through Poems,i can't compare in the least to all you Guys i think writing was never a big Strength of me in the First Place so i should've tried and put in the best i could instead of submitting something that someone else would need Praise for.
Or maybe just leave it be and Focus on something i'm actually good at,like making Sets and Photography i guess.
I know at this Point,there isn't really an Excuse for all of this but i'd like to at least try and explain:
In the Last Months my Life has been full of Up's and Down's,mostly Down's actually but yeah full of them.
I feel pressured by all kinds of things around me and i get frustrated really quickly if i realize that i can't help them anymore,People are telling me on a Daily Basis the kind of Expectations they have of me and that they want me to come true to them.
I hate disappointing People so i always try and do what i can to at least get a little recognition from them for it,i know you can't always make everyone Happy and make them like you but i find it hard to accept such things and then tend to overthink stuff and react on the smallest Impulse to try and make People acknowledge me. You could say that i did this "Plagiarising" because i felt pressured by People telling me to do my Best in Contests and submitting Art Pieces,i know i shouldn't be bothered that much by it but i was and i also know that the People that told me that didn't mean to put me under pressure as well.
I shouldn't participate in a Contest because i feel i
HAVE to but because i
WANT to,winning a Contest with your Own Work is something that can make An Artist proud and confident in his Skills and motivate him to do his Best,i'll be honest i stopped feeling motivated for anything i only did things because i had to not because i wanted to and thats when i lost my Passion for it and what drove me to take others Ideas for my own "advantage".
As i said there is no Excuse for acting like this and i also know that People are disappointed at me now and mad as well,as i already mentioned before:
I don't like disappointing others but i also know that i can't help it this Time.
Again,i'm really sorry for Things turning out this way and to all the People that didn't have a Bad Intention by telling me they are looking forward to my future Submissions.
I just took it too serious,because i let everything get to me no matter what it is. The Things i talked about above are just some of the Issues i have in my Life there are many more Factors that played into me becoming like that. Not that People are supposed to care about it or even bother with Reading this Apology Letter i think its necessary to be said.
I'm done now.
Sorry everyone
Seraph