So, ahem..
I confess I met a guy and I went on a date with him around two weeks ago. I didn't feel like I like him and things, but I felt drawn to him somehow. So silly me went to a second date the next day. That usually means you kinda like the person, right? Well, in my case, I was just being my weird and lonely self and I didn't think straight. So I kept seeing the guy almost every day til now. He told me he likes me and I told him that I want to stay friends, meaning I friendzoned him. But do you feel attracted to someone you have friendzoned? That isn't supposed to happen. I kinda felt like he's cute and there has been some tension going on. I let him hug me a couple of times. Like those long hugs. And the last couple of days things kinda went overboard. He almost kissed me... a lot of times. So I needed to step away, because it's killing me. It's not what I want. I can't be the person that just goes along with whatever is happening. I feel like I'm hurting myself exactly where I know I hurt the most right now. And I feel so stupid stupid stupid. So I told the guy I need some distance, but I really want to keep seeing him as a friend. ._. It might not work out though, cause things have been pretty weird, at least for me.