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*shrugs* like ive said before, as messed up as my mind is now, its a lot better than it used to be. i tried killing myself three times. once by slicing my wrists *holds them out to show scars* once by slicing my throat *holds up chin for scars* and by swallowing a small pharmacy. i dont recommend that one, cus if someone catches u in the middle of it, they pump charcoal into ur system, and you get what they call explosive diarrhea, where youve got about 3 seconds between urge and needing to have your pants down, and damn does it come out fast. but they need it to clear out ur system. all three times i was caught, the pills i didnt think anyone was home, my sister snuk up behind me as i was taking several thousand milligrams of some pain killers, grabed the pills and called for an ambulence. the wrists, i did across in stead of down, and and it takes a lot longer that way (but i didnt know that) so i was, again, caught. the throat was my first attempt ever when i was like 7 or 8, and my sisters stopped me and grabed the knife. i still got pretty deep before they got me though, the doc said i missed the main vain or whatever by a few centimeters.
i didnt exactly have a happy childhood >_> but im not suicidal anymore, so no ph34rs. i dont trust anyone, im sure that everyone is out to get me, and my moods change really quickly, but not suicidal
well that was cheerful. >_>
arrggh. someone in my house sucks at washing dishes. i keep getting glasses that have dish detergent in them, so whenever i get water or whatever, thats all i can taste. and id do them myself, but i already spend three hours a night doing dishes at work, i really dont wanna come home and have to do them.
i didnt exactly have a happy childhood >_> but im not suicidal anymore, so no ph34rs. i dont trust anyone, im sure that everyone is out to get me, and my moods change really quickly, but not suicidal
well that was cheerful. >_>
arrggh. someone in my house sucks at washing dishes. i keep getting glasses that have dish detergent in them, so whenever i get water or whatever, thats all i can taste. and id do them myself, but i already spend three hours a night doing dishes at work, i really dont wanna come home and have to do them.
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I feel like in all my classes I'm always the last one to get there...and then everyone's staring at you...it's always very awkward 




right now i'm looking for a home for him among my friends... i'm still so sad to leave him though...

*runs* !!!
! (don't know if there's a correct spelling for that word...
)