It's just that my life has become such a mess and I can't feel at peace with myself, I start to think that I am worthless just like some people start to do the same, and I feel that I am not able to reach my full potential, I can't keep up with deadlines, and some people I really like start to become harmed by some of my actions.
I feel so bad that I start to think I don't even mind selling my soul to that devil as long as it makes me normal.
I'm desperate and I start to hate myself I can't deal with it anymore. I can't see any way out other than medicine even though I hate the idea.

Just keep the head up, I feel the same all the time, really ^^




