"As loucas aventuras do Moa"

[xi0]

I won't man... I have to at least try proper therapy first

It'd be different if you had a chemical imbalance or were hearing voices in your head. But, speaking from experience, I don't think this kind of medication has the benefits to help much on it's own.

 

[TheMoa]

And today she called me crying... she said that she loves me, she was wrong to avoid me, that I was right to be pissed but she wants to be back. She told me that she's confused about her life(if she keep trying college, if she aceppt a job offer here or if she goes back to her city to work with her mother) and that it messes with her head so much that she doesn't know how to deal with it and end up shutting everybody else... shit like that
Tough business to hear someone that you like crying and all.

I told her that we can talk after I came back from my trip, but she have to figure out if she want a relationship an what she wants on it by herself... and until now I'm single

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I'm an idiot... we're back together again. I know that it's stupid, but I just want to try it. Not the wisest decision.. I know
And to make it all worse... she applied to some colleges with her grades from last year ENEM (like a SAT) and it isn't good enough for the college here, but it's enough for a college in another state that is relatively close to her folks home, she'll have an answer by friday, but she's probably in. I told her to make that best decision for herself and that we work things from there. I know she can't stand another 6 months studying all this shit again, so it is the best for her to get in now if she can... but selfishly enough, I don't want her to go. I'm pretty sure our relationship wouldn't last this far apart... it's barely surviving when we are living a 20 minute bus ride apart in the same city. But I'm not telling her that, I don't think it to be fair, to make her chose between something certain like college now and a troubled relationship that may or may not have a future with the uncertain of college 6 months from now.

 

[xi0]

Yeah, sounds like you sort of have an out because of the Uni thing.

 

[TheMoa]

Well... she got the results today and she didn’t get in. The System here works that we have 2 options of unis to choose. Her first option was UFMG here on Belo Horizonte, the same uni as mine and one of the best of the country, she knew she wouldn’t get in, but she tried anyway. Her second option was an uni on another state (farfalla homestate) and she was pretty sure she would get in, since the “cut grade” was bellow her grade. On the last day it went up and her placing was 12 out of 11 vacancies. Because it was her second choice, she can’t apply for the waiting list, in the case of someone dropping out(what is a sure thing to happen). She’s only on the UFMG waiting list, but she’s too far away to have a realistic chance to be called.
For selfish reasons I was actually happy with it, since she’ll have a better chance at the end of the year and won’t have to move now… Off course I didn’t tell it her. But she was so sad frustrated and unresigned with all this that I’m feeling like a real asshole for having just a glimpse of happiness about all this while she’s so down.

 

[xi0]

Dude, the whole situation seems toxic as fuck, to be honest...

 

[TheMoa]

I know man, this whole relationship is something else... it was something else from the start and I said it here,
Well, right now things are going smoothly... let's see how it will be in 2 weeks or so, she's always a wonder

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I reeeeeeeeally need some vacation... seriously, the semester was really shitty and now it’s finally over… but on work we are on a taskforce to finish some damn technical release. The thing is giant, a study on national level done by multiple agencies of the country… but the other agencies aren’t doing a thing, we’re doing the whole thing by ourselves and they’ll only review it. The deadline is approaching and we’re working extra hours to finish it. But everybody here is exhausted, we’re working more but the productivity is only going down.
I should be writing some shit now, but simple can’t think in a straight line of reasoning. The last couple of years are really taking a tool, mentally speaking. It’s only the second day of the week and I’m already feeling like it’s Friday, hoping to get home and forget it for a couple of days… but I’ll probably have to do some work home at the weekend.
The worse of it all is that our boss ask us to do something.. we do, he review, change a few things and send it to his boss. His boss review and ask us to do everything different… so we do it all in a different way, like he asked, then he changes his mind and ask us to do something resembling what was done before..
I’m working from 8am to 8pm almost everyday… 12 hours maybe isn’t a lot for some people, but my contract is actually a 5 hours internship.

---------- Post added June 11, 2014 at 03:26 PM ---------- Previous post was June 10, 2014 at 05:57 PM ----------

well.. today I working when I opened my facebook... there was a inbox from my GF
a long text that I couldn't read clearly cuz we can't use facebook too much here... but it basically said "I tried, but I never loved you" I'm broking up with you
Well, I was TOTALLY blindsided by this, I mean, we have our problems and all.... but yesterday everything was fine, we would go out tonight on "brazilian valentines day" and tomorrow we would watch the cup together
It didn't fully sink yet, I'm just kind of lost. I sent her a txt asking to break up like adults and meet, but she refused... So I just wrot everything I had to speak and sent it to her on facebook
I already deleted her number from my phone cuz I know I will call when I get drunk... The next step is getting home and deleting our facebook pic together and getting her out of my timeline.

 

[goldb]

So after all that, she decides to break up with you? that's truly messed up.

My bad, dude.

 

[TheMoa]

yeah, that is!
I went to the trouble of keeping up with everything, trying to be a good person, to be supportive, to understand. Everything was fine yesterday, today she figured it out that she never "loved me", she just "liked me a lot" and for that reason she's breaking up. I mean, 3 months... who is sure about love in 3 months?
Off course I'm not going after her... my fear is that 2 weeks from now she'll call me again and tell me that she can't live without me anymore.... again
For me it's over, really over... but it don't make me less sad
I truly think she needs to get help from a professional, for her future... this ups and downs aren't normal.
A friend of mine told me that this is just me looking for excuse her... but I don't think it's the case, I think she really have problems

 

[jorped]

yeah, that is!
I went to the trouble of keeping up with everything, trying to be a good person, to be supportive, to understand. Everything was fine yesterday, today she figured it out that she never "loved me", she just "liked me a lot" and for that reason she's breaking up. I mean, 3 months... who is sure about love in 3 months?
Off course I'm not going after her... my fear is that 2 weeks from now she'll call me again and tell me that she can't live without me anymore.... again
For me it's over, really over... but it don't make me less sad
I truly think she needs to get help from a professional, for her future... this ups and downs aren't normal.
A friend of mine told me that this is just me looking for excuse her... but I don't think it's the case, I think she really have problems

Based on what i have seen you saying here, i also think she definitely needs to go see a professional. We all have ups and downs but the way you described her actions i would say she has definitely some emotional problem and it would prolly be good for her to seek some help.

I don't know how she broke up with you, but i think the minimum she should do would be to talk to you in person. I think that "owns" you that much.
I honestly think it's not only ungrateful but also weak to not do so. Completely different from my character.

Well i have the feeling you were as supportive as possible and the relationship didn't fail because of you.
You probably feel like a fool for trying to bear all those problems, trying to understand her, trying to give her space, being so supportive and in the end having her just cut everything so easily with a simple facebook message.

But what else could you have done? Leaving the relationship when the problems first showed up? I think you would had ended up regretting it yourself and maybe feel bad about just ending everything with her so easily without trying to see if the relationship had any future.

Anyway i can't give any advice or do anything to ease the sadness you must be feeling, but i would just like to say that i think you should be proud of yourself, even if that somehow seems weird.

And ...

 

[TheMoa]

I told her that she owed me at least breaking up to my face... but she said that she is a coward and don't have the courage to do so (her words). I don't regret trying, I''ll always be the kind of guy who regrets what wasn't done instead of regretting what I tried to do. It sucks cuz I like her, a lot... and it pisses me of that we had a serious talk one week ago and it was like "I love you, I want this, don't leave me, I want to be with you"... it came from her. And on a blink of an eye she just drops a "never loved you". I wish she had left me alone the last time, by now I would probably getting over... but no, she had came after me and say all sweet things, get me more connected, to just cut it out.
Well.. life

 

[xi0]

She just liked the idea of being in a relationship and liked the attention. But the reality of it? lol

 

[TheMoa]

I don't even know what she liked anymore

 

[xi0]

I don't even know what she liked anymore

She sounds insane, honestly

 

[TheMoa]

Yes... It seems I'm kind of have a thing for attracting crazy women.

And last night was reeeeeally crazy.. my classmates and I would have an end of semester party, but a lot of people couldn't go, so we canceled the party and decided to just drink at our friend house and watch some WC games (spain and chile's ones). His parents and his sister were there. After a while his mother and his sister went out and his father stayed drinking with us. He was smoking a "paiol" cigarrette with one of the guys,
A lot of beers later he ask us if any of us has something else to smoke, instead of tobacco... hahahaha
We smoked weed with our friends father, never in my life I would expect such a thing to happen hahahah
And he went like "my wife is 8 block away, I can have some fun now"
After she came back they went to bed, then we started to sing karaoke songs. There was a friend of mine there who kind of got dumped by her ex this week too (they broke up long ago, but got close again the last month and he asked her out on this week valentine`s day, but he didn't show up and went mia). She was sad and pissed with everything, like me... so we kind of were licking each other wounds. I wanted to txt my ex to curse her.. thanks god that I deleted her number from my phone. We made out and went to a bar after the party was over and drank until 6 am, then she asked me to her friends house, cuz she was going to sleep there. I went there and we kind of were on the mood... but after I took her top out... she slept hauuhahuauha.
We slept cuddling each other.. but today we kind of were ashamed of everything, thanks god we didn't fuck cuz it would make everything more awkward. Today my head ringing like a bell.

 

[nanaDmari]

I thought your new story would be about another crazy woman because of the first phrase of your post XD
You need a blessing or something to get rid of that kind...

 

[xi0]

Yeah, a blessing. Is Nana volunteering?

 

[TheMoa]

I thought your new story would be about another crazy woman because of the first phrase of your post XD
You need a blessing or something to get rid of that kind...

haha, no... it's because of a crazier one that I got involved last year... hahaha

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Yeah, a blessing. Is Nana volunteering?

she's welcomed to do so

 

[nanaDmari]

Oh, I even have a special technique for these cases ;}

But I'm focused on curing another broken heart at the moment...

 

[TheMoa]

Oh, I even have a special technique for these cases ;}

But I'm focused on curing another broken heart at the moment...

good luck with that... tough business

 

[nanaDmari]

good luck with that... tough business

hehe
Yes, and it requires a lot of patience... something that I don't usually have XD