Homunculus Volume 15

*Only for use by I-M.

tl by molokidan

4)
1: click

5)
1: Wooow, look at this!
2: It's a white Christmas!
3: tap..
4: Mm...

6)
1: Wh...
2: What the...
3: What is this...

7)
1: Wh...
2: What's happening...
3: to me...

8)
1: Nakoshi-san.
2: I brought an organic
3: christmas cake!
4: What's wrong...?

9)
1: Another Homunculus got inside me.
2: Why...
3: Why...all did was "look"...why did it have to go inside me...?

10)
1: What the hell is...
2: with these things...!!

11)
1: Nakoshi-san...
2: You...
3: already know the answer to that, don't you?
4: You know
5: what they really are, don't you?

12)
1: They're the proof, the medals that show you've "seen" what you've seen...
2: Clumps of egotism
3: saying "Yeah, look what I saw!"

13)
1: Wh...
2: What...?
3(2b): The more "Homunculi" (human distortions) you see, the more medals of proof
that you "saw what you saw" build up and warp within you...
4: It's simple...
5: You must understand it somewhere within.
6: Wh...
7: What are you talking about...

14)
1: It's nothing more than a simple expression of desire, hope, and expectation.
2: You "saw" someone, so you want someone else to "see" you.
3: It's a simple side-effect from the act of "seeing."
4: You just want something in return.
5: "Look at me."

15)
1(2b): Wh...what are you talking about...
2: I've never, EVER
3: asked someone to "look back at me"...
4: Exactly. That's why those "suppressed feelings" of yours are appearing in a
distorted shape.
5: No!
6: These aren't some dirty things like that.

16)
1: What do you know!
2: You can't see anything!
3: These things...
4: There's some special message hidden in them!
5: They need to be seen by someone else who can see them...
6: I need someone to look at my Homunculus...!

17)
1: You're
2: wrong, you know....
3(2b): It's true that what you're seeing isn't merely a hallucination. I imagine
you're seeing something that can't be explained through science.
4: However,
5: the things that "possessed" you bear no meaning...
6: They're simply manifestations of your selfish demands.

18)
1: You know, "looking" isn't something you sould expect compensation for.
2: What...
3: You always have a scientific explanation for everything. What are you getting
all romantic on me for...?
4: The one who asks for nothing in return...
5: The stalker...is the more human one.
6: Shut up...

19)
1: Wait...
2: Then what does it mean to "look?"

20)
1: I don't know...

21)
1: You're...
2: creeping me out.

22)
1: You're creepier.
2: Oh well.
3: I guess the creepy one has to leave, then.

23)
1: Car guy!
2(2b): W...we...we got trouble!!

25)
1: Why...
2: Why would he...
3: Ita-san...
4: You had a place to return to...

26)
1: Ita-chan...
2: He cleaned his tent up so nicely...
3: He was probably deciding...
4: whether or not to go back to his daughter...
5: But...
6(2b): All he need to do was muster up a little courage...and go back home,
right...?

27)
1: Just a little courage...
2: Car guy.
3: No one blames anyone for not having courage in this place.

28)
1: This is bad...
2: I need to find somewhere to go...

29)
1: I need to find somewhere to go...!

32)
sign: TRAFFIC VIOLATION

33)
1: Fuck.
2: So I can't even park here now, huh...?
3: I can't be here anymore?

35)
1: Then where the hell am I supposed to go?!

37)
1: ...Nanako...

39)
1: Hello.
2: Uh...
3: Uhhh...
4: Who's "Nanako?"

40)
1: Somewhere to go...

41)
1: Huh?
2: Did you say something?
3: No...

42)
1: Here.
2: rustle
3: I figured you'd be OK if I brought you this much.
4: Uh, sure...
5: Can you give me a ride?

43)
1: I'll pay for it.
2: I don't need your money.
3: What?
4: Just your "consideration"...
5: "Consideration"...?
6: Get in.

44)
1-2: slam
3-4: bzzzzz

45)
1-3: bzzzzzz

46)
1: beep
2: You alright?
3: Don't you need to go to your daddy's place today?
4: What do you mean
5: by "daddy?"
6: Today's
7: business got rescheduled.

47)
1: It's alright.
2: She can't completely fake it...
3: There's no power behind her lie...

48)
1: We're here...
2: rustle
3: Wait a moment.

50)
1: Th...
2: This is...
sign: Extras

51)
1: Hey. Hey. HEY!

52)
1: What do you think you're doing...
2: bam

53)
1: Here.
2: What's
3: this for?
4: Let me sleep in this car
5: for 7000 yen tonight.
6: What...
7: has gotten into you...
8: Please.

54)
1: You think both of us can sleep in this cramped space...?
2: It's alright.
3: I can curl up and sleep.
4: Let's just go for now.

55)
1: Where?
2: Please don't go back THERE...
3: You mean "in front of the hotel"...?
4: Then
5: where would you like to go?
6: Just...
7: keep driving...

56)
1: Nakoshi-san.
2: Nakoshi-saaaaan.

57)
1: That woman's ugly daddy...

58)
1-3: brrriiiing
4: rustle
phone: Itou
5: beep
6: Hello?

59)
1: Where are you, Nakoshi-san?!
2: I heard that the homeless guy from yesterday committed suicide this morning!!
3: Yeah...
4: I went to your car, but it wasn't there...
5: I got scared...
6: I found a place to go.
7: What?
8: What did you say?
9: Nothing...

60)
1: Also,
2: that creepy sugar daddy from yesterday...
3: it looks like he's a yakuza!
4: You shouldn't get further involved with that woman!!

61)
1(2b): OK, got it.
2: See ya.
3: Wait...Nakoshi-san...
4: beep
5: Something wrong?
6: Nope,
7: everything's fine.

62)
1: Man...
2: look at all that snow.
3: What did you see...yesterday?
4: Huh?
5: Remember all that stuff you were talking about at the pier?
6: Just...

63)
1: what can you see?

64)
1: Hearts.
2(2b): At least...that's what I think they are...
3: Huh?
4: H...
5: Hearts...?
6: You keep saying that word...but how can you see something like that?

65)
1: What do they look like?
2: Explain it to me in concrete words.
3: But you already know.

66)
1: You opened up a hole in your skull?

67)
1: People looked like robots and sand monsters to you?
2: Homunculus?!

68)
1: What is that...?
2: It sounds like some kind of disease...
3: it's just some kind of hallucination, isn't it...
4: Yeah...
5: Probably...
6: Don't think I believe that stupid story about you opening a hole in your head...
7: slip

69)
1: Here...
2: Touch it.
3: What?!
4: Check it for yourself.

70)
1: touch...

71)
1: Ewww!!
2: There's two.
3: Here's the other one.
4-5: rub

72)
1: flick...
2: Faceless.
3: Huh?

73)
1: You're faceless.
2: You've got no "face"...
3: Did opening holes in your head
4: make you go crazy?
5: where did you leave
6: your "face"...?

74)
1-2: pop
3: You really
4: must be hallucinating after all.

75)
1: Heh...
2(2b): A pig's nose, droopy eyes, and gross teeth...
3: What are you
4: talking about...
5: I thought so.
6: You left your face with that ugly guy
7: who has the mole on his nose.

76)
1: Don't loooooook!
2: Waah.

79)
1: Maybe your real face
2: is the ugly face that appeared in that Homunculus.
3(2b): No...that isn't my original face...
4: Maybe you just forgot
5: what you really looked like.
6: There's no way...

80)
1: Ahhh!
2: Woah.

81)
1: Buhaaah.

82)
1: A...
2: Are you alright?
3: Y...yes...

83)
1: Th...
2: That's money...

88)
1: Pfft.
2-3: Heheheheh!

89)
1: Ah...
2: What...?

90)
1: "Money" (Lies), huh...?

91)
1: Where'd you get all that...?
2(2b): It's what you saved from using your "lies" (body), right?
3: You can't escape
4: now...
5: from the abyss known as "lying."

92)
1: And yet despite all that, you have this shallow expectation that "maybe he'll
look at my "truth" (heart)."
2: That's why
3: you came to me, isn't it?
4: Hilarious!
5: Who would look at the "truth" (heart) of someone
6: who only believes in lies?

93)
1: Who would look at a big pile of lies?!
2: Idiot!
3: haa...

94)
1: Fuck you!!

96)
1: That "truth" (heart) you keep talking about doesn't exist!
2: All that exists is what you see before you!
3: All "people" (men) ever look at...
4(4b): are my "lie" (face), "lie" (body), and "crotch" (lie)!!

97)
1: You were
2: no different!!

98)
1: I changed my face
2: hoping that it would change things,
3: but look at me now.
4: Go ahead and laugh!
5: Haha...
6: Ha...

99)
1: In the end, not a single person
2: looked at my "heart" (inside)...

100)
1: And all I can look at are people's "lies" (faces), "lies" (money), and "lies"
(things)!!

102)
1: Liaaaaar!!

103)
1: You're lying about not looking at the heart...
2(3b): Liar, liar, liar.

104)
1: Don't you remember?
2: There was one man whose "truth" (heart) you saw...

105)
1: He had a pig's nose,
2: droopy eyes,
3: and gross teeth...
4: But you weren't fazed by his "ugliness" (exterior),
5: and you saw his "heart!"

106)
1: Yes...
2: And he saw you too.
3: Your heart...

107)
1: I fit in here...

108)
1: Ugly...
2: Looking down...
3: Staring at nothing but my feet as I walk...
4: ...empty days...
5: of...
6: nothing...

109)
1-2: throb...
3: Then...
4: you looked at me...
5: You came right into
6: my downward field of view,
7: looking up at me.

110)
1: You even drew a picture of me...
2: of my heart...
3: It was shocking to me.
4: I thought only the things you could see before you mattered.

111)
1: "You" (She) could see the invisible.
2: You...
3: were a genius of sight...!

112)
1-2: Please look.
3: Please look more!
4: As much as you can...
5: I was gradually able to raise my face...

113)
1: Staring forward...
2: For the first time, I had the courage to look at other people.

114)
1: I could face people.
2: I wanted to see.
3-4: More.

115)
1: I want to see you...
2: More and more...
3: I want to see you!!

119)
1-2: psh...

120)
1: Na...
2: Nanako...

121)
1(2b): Then...why...
2: Why...

122)
1: Why did you run away?!

124)
1: Why...
2: did you run away...

135)
1: Why...
2: did you run away...

136)
1: You're cold...
2: Let's get in the car.
3: I'll pick up all the money.
4: Let's go.

140)
1: Why did you leave me...
2: Satoshi...
3: My eyes were on nothing but you...
4: On you, yourself...

141)
1: I had thought...
2: about getting cosmetic surgery
3: long before I met you...
4: I wanted to escape my empty days
5: of looking downward...

142)
1: Then,
2: I met you...
3: and you looked at me...
4: you let me look forward.
5: But when I looked forward,
6: all I could see...
7: was what lied beyond "the truth" (Nanako).
8: Nothing but the gorgeous "lies" (material world)...

143)
1: The people I hated the most,
2: those bitches who had nothing but looks, and only wanted people to lookat them.
3: Their faces, breasts, waists, and legs...
4: kept flashing in front of my eyes...
5: Every time my eyes slipped over to the lies...
6: Nanako
7: would come back into view,
8: looking at me...

144)
1: It was scary...
2: You always looked up at me...
3: It was like you were some "underground girl," staring up at me from the bottom
of a deep well.

145)
1: Here I was, being danced around by the gorgeous lies above.
2: And every time I looked down...
3: I saw the "below," ever ready to suck me down...
4: I was scared...

146)
1: You're terrible...
2: Just a few glances like that
3: was enough to make you get a big head...?
4: Yep...
5: That's exactly what happened...
6: It was Christmas...

147)
1: When "lies" (the material) shines its brightest...
2: I just...
3: didn't want to spend Christmas...
4: with an ugly girl...!

148)
1: I gripped the flyer...
2: of the cosmetic surgery clinic once more...

149)
1: and decided to throw myself into the "fake world."
2: I threw away my old face...
3: Threw away Nanako...

150)
1: What are you talking about...
2: That isn't all you threw away...

151)
1: That isn't all...

152)
1: You threw away the child in my stomach...

154)
1: You ran away from our child as well...
2: I can understand, though...
3: You wanted to throw away your ugly self and be reborn, have a new life...

155)
1: You didn't want to see an ugly clone of yourself appear before your eyes.
2: Yeah...
3: I didn't...
4: You're right...
5: It was the pregnancy...
6: that made me decide to get the surgery.

156)
1: No one looked at me, and I left no impression on anyone...I was ignored, never
valued...
2: It didn't even feel like I was living...
3: I wanted to escape
4: from my "nothing" self...

157)
1: My face,
2: Nanako,
3: and my child.
4: I wanted to throw away everything...!
5: And what did you get, in the end?
6: In the end...

158)
1: I ended up having to fun another escape route...
2: Searching for a place to go...
3: Trying to figure out where I SHOULD go...
4: Everyday,
5: I did nothing but search for an escape...

160)
1: But I'm different now...
2: I finally found
3: where I need to go.
4: I'm

161)
1: going to look at you.

162)
1: From here on,

163)
1: I'm going to look at nothing but your heart.

165)
1: ...at me too?
2: What?
3: Will you...
4: look at me too?
5: At my heart...

169)
1: I...
2: don't know how to look at "hearts" (people) anymore...
3: That's not true.
4: You may not be able to now, but you used to be able to...
5: The clouds!
6: Huh?
7: Clouds?

170)
1: You looked at my "pure white clouds,"
2: Nanako!
3: It's alright.
4: I know you can see.
5: You've known this whole time...

171)
1: I'm not "Nanako"...and I can't see any "clouds."

174)
1: Ahhh!
2: Owww.
3: D...don't grab my hair.
4: What...?
5: I'm saying I'm going to look at you.
6: Why can't you just reply with "I'll look at you too?"
7: What?

175)
1(2b): You're already 30, aren't you, Nanako?
2(2b): That "lie" (body) that everyone looks at you for is going to get old and
wither soon.
3: Am I wrong?
4(2b): The older you get, the less and less people will look at you. You've already
started to notice it, haven't you?
5: Nanako.

176)
1(2b): But that doesn't necessarily mean that someone who will look at your "truth"
(heart) will just come sauntering along.
2(3b): If you have no one to look at your "lie" (body) or your "truth" (heart),
Nanako, then how will you go on existing in this world?
3: Hm??

177)
1: How will you go on living?
2: You don't want to die a lonely death...

178)
1: whisper whisper
2(2b): Wh-what are you doing to my ear...?!
3(2b): I said I'd look at you. At YOU.
4: All you need to do is look back at me.

179)
1: Just a simple "exchange" (romance)...

180)
1: I look at "your heart" (you).
2: You look at "my heart" (me).
3: That's all...
4: You won't need to cover your "truth" (heart) with "lies" anymore.

181)
1: Not to people...
2: Not to me...
3: You won't need to lie anymore...
4: You...
5: just have to...

182)
1: lie a little to yourself.

183)
1: A...
2: demon...

186)
1-3: crunch

188)
1: What's wrong,
2: Nanako?

189)
1: Wh...
2: Why...
3: do I have to look at you...?!
4: Isn't it obvious...?
5: Because I'm looking at you.
6: At your heart.

190)
1: Heart...heart...
2: That's all you keep saying...
3: The only thing you're seeing
4: is hallucinations!
5: Come back to reality!!
6: There's no way
7: anyone can see a "heart!!"

193)
1: Wh
2: Why...
3: I stuck a GPS in one of the wads of cash.
4: Whoopsie...
5: Can't believe you'd try to skip town
6: with the group's "hidden stash."

194)
1: H...
2: Him...
3(2b): He threatened me and made me go with him!!
4: It's his fault!

195)
1: Please, believe me!

196)
1: Ahhhhh!

197)
1: Who'd believe you.
2: you old hag.

198)
1: Nggh...
2(2b): I thought you'd be the perfect hiding spot, and look what happens.
3: You should've learned to shut up and follow your orders, like a good old hag.
4: That hole of yours is the only useful thing about you, you know that?!

199)
1: One, two,
3: three.

200)
1: Are you with her?

202)
1: What are you doing...
2: Trying to throw me off guard with some weird movements?
3: Let's be more simple here.
4: chk...

203)
1: I want to see you crawl in the snow.
2: push...
3: Put the gun down.

204)
1: Put the gun down.

205)
1: What'll you do if it shoots her eye out?
2: Her eye...?
3: Your little sister...?

206)
1: Your little sister...
2: The gun...
3: What happened?!

207)
1: rub
2: Y...
3: You...

208)
1: Your little sister's
2: eye...?
3: Ahh.
4: It's a toy gun...!
5: What the...hell...
6: is with you...
7: I get it...

209)
1: Your little sister's eye...
2: with a toy gun...
3-4: What?
5: Ahh...

211)
1: Wh...
2: What is this...?

212)
1: I...
2: I didn't mean to...
3: I know...
4: ...Yasuko...
5: slip...
6: You don't need to do that...

213)
1: You loved her,
2: and she loves you too.

214)
1: Waaaaaaaahh

216)
1: Now,
2: hurry up and go to her!
3-4: Yeah.

219)
1: C...
2: could it be...
3: You can...
4: really...
5: see
6: hearts...?
7: I told you...

220)
1(2b): So...you can really
2: see me...?

221)
1: Of course...
2: Nanako.

222)
1: I...
2: wonder if..
3: I can
4: see yours too...?
5: It's alright...
6: I know the perfect thing!

232)
1: whine...
2: Oh, Tarou.
3: Where's Take-san?
4: whine...
5: Isn't he here...?

233)
sign: KEEP OUT
1: Take-san...
2: So you need to find somewhere to go too...
3: whine

235)
sign right: Trepanation Equipment
sign left: All doooooone!

238)
1: Nakoshi-saaaan!

239)
1: Huh?
2: He's gone...
3(2b): All that work on this organic christmas cake was for nothing...
4: Where'd he go...?

241)
1-2: click

242)
1-2: click

243)
1: clink...
2-3: clink

244)
1: Relax...
2: I'm going to numb you up, so you won't feel anything. Just some little
vibrations.
3: Opening this hole won't hurt your brain at all. It's no different from dental
work.
4: They do this overseas all the time. And look, I've done it twice already.
There's no danger to it.
5: It'll just...
6: It'll just...?

245)
1: make you see "hearts" a little bit.

246)
1: Alright...
2: you're alright.
3: Once your hair grows back no one will be able to see the wound.
4: Now then...

248)
1: Nanako.

249)
1: There's something I want you show you...
2(2b): Huh? Wh...what?
3: Relax...
4: With this,
5: we'll be able to look at each others' hearts.

256)
1: Well?

257)
1: What do you see?

258)
1: N...
2(2b): Nothing...
3: Well?
4: Nothing...

259)
1: How about now?
2: clasp
3: Nothing...
4: I see.
5: The effects didn't appear immediately for me either.

260)
1: Just take your time and look...

261)
1: Can you hear it?
2: What?
3: Close your eyes and listen.

262)
1: throb
2(2b): I...I can hear it...
3: what is this...?
4-6: throb

263)
1-2: throb
3: Your brain's palpitations...
4-11: throb
12: These are...

264)
1: human palpitations.

266)
1: I'll keep looking at you
2: until you can see.

270)
1: wh...
2: what the...
3: It's you.

271)
1: So you finally appear.

272)
1: Why did you have to start off
2: with those confusing Homunculi things?
3: You should have
4: just done this from the start.

273)
1: I was waiting for you...

281)
1: Ready?
2: Yeah...
3: Let's become one...

283)
1: I'm looking at you.
2: Now you...
3: look at me.

284)
1: Let's look at each other...!

286)
1: ...um.
2: What?
3: I'm gonna cum...

287)
1: Cum!
2: Ahhhhhhh
3-10: cum
11: C...

288)
1: ...um
2: pop...
3: pop

289)
1: Huh?

290)
1: That isn't me.

291)
1: Ahhhhhhhhh

294)
1: What...
2: that isn't me...
3: Yeah...

295)
1: It's you...

296)
1: jerk

297)
1: Nanako.
2: Hey, Nanako!
2-3: zzzz
4: She must have lost a lot of blood...
5: I'll let her sleep.

299)
1: slam
note: TO Nanako...
I went to go get some food upstairs. I'll be back soon.

303)
1: Nakoshi-sama...
2: Hi.
3: Nakoshi-sama,
4: I'm very sorry...

304)
1: You seem to be troubling the other customers,
2: So I'm going to have to ask you to leave today...
3: Huh?!

305)
1: Hahahahahahahaha.
2: Na...
3: Nakoshi-sama...
4: Hahahahahah.

306)
1: Sorry, sorry.
2: sniff sniff
3: I didn't notice myself...
4: Haha...
5: Yeah, I guess that's to be expected, after how I lived...

307)
1: Sorry, sorry.
2: Na...
3: Nakoshi-sama...

309)
1: Pff...
2: I never should have come here in the first place...
3: I was just lost...

311)
1: Wh...
2: What the...

312)
1: That's me.

313)
1: Hey, you two.

314)
1: Hey...
2: Don't look away from me.
3: Huh?
4(2b): Um...excuse me??
5: I know you're bad at expressing your feelings.

315)
1: Just...
2: It's stupid to waste time without looking at anything or saying anything.
3: You need to move forward.
4: Heeeey!

316)
1: clamp
2: You too.
3: H...
4: Hey...

317)
1: Don't lie.
2: Words aren't just things you spit out.
3: It's fine to be embarrassed.
4: You should always be honest about your feelings.

318)
1: Stop throwing lies at each other.

320)
1: Yo.
2: Hey.
3: 'sup.

321)
1: Huh?
2: You know that guy?
3: No...
4: Then why did you say hello to him?
5: I dunno...
6(2b): Hey, it's Christmas, isn't it?

325)
1: The Homunculi are me...

326)
1: Not "monsters"...

327)
1: Not "hallucinations"...
2: Not "reality"...

328)
1: Just "Homunculi." (truth)

333)
1: Am I in Heaven...?

334)
1: Or Hell?

336)
1: --One year later--

343)
1: I finally found you...

345)
1: You've gotten pretty.
2: Huh?
3: So...

346)
1: You came to see me, didn't you?
2: Huh?
3: You came to look at me.
4: That's why you came, right?

347)
1: I'm tired...

348)
1: Tired of looking...

349)
1: I couldn't get that "Nanako" girl
2: to "look at me"...
3: I was searching
4: for "someone" (a human) who would.
5: No...
6: I've always been...

350)
1: Will you look at me?

353)
1: Yeah...
2: I mean, this is all your fault to begin with.
3: It really...
4: is my fault...
5: You need to take responsibility.

354)
1-2: It's my fault...

355)
1: pull...
2: Please...

356)
1: Look at me.

357)
1: I'll look at you...

358)
1-2: I'm sorry...

365)
1: Hey.
2: It's you guys!