Mon Seul 5

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Chapter 5

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Kanda: Look / here // look at this
Nanami: What’s this? / a pupa? // it’s a black swallowtail / it’s emerging

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N: Wow…
K: Ah!

K: Don’t touch it!
N: eh?

K: Once / Ikeuchi and I found a butterfly in the midst of emergence from it’s pupa // we were so happy we wanted to see it fly // so we tried to help it spread it’s wings…

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K: But it needed to spend a lot of time and build up tolerance to the outside world by itself // and because we touched it, it couldn’t spread it’s body fluids so the butterfly eventually…

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K: Ikeuchi!

K: Why did you ignore us…
Ikeuchi: I… // thought I might be in the way

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K: In the way? / Ikeuchi
I: Why?

I: You guys agreed with each other right? / good for you // if your partner says “ok” then there’s no problem // if you guys love each other then it shouldn’t matter if your partner is a grade schooler or a kindergartener right?

I: That’s the “freedom” you guys refer to // so whatever // it doesn’t matter to me anymore

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K: How can it

K: Not matter! / you’re family! // don’t turn the blind eye to Minami-chan, you should just hate me!

K: Ikeuchi!

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K: Ikeuchi…

N: Oniichan / hates me now doesn’t he…
K: Minami-chan…

K: But // it’s ok

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N: Ever since I cut my long hair that I purposely grew long to look more childlike // I quit being “oniichan’s little sister”

N: But even without oniichan / or father // you’ll be there for me right? / so I’m okay! // right?

K: Minami-chan…

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N: Ah… // I can’t // do much

N: I can practice cooking / and I can wear make-up to look older // I’ll grow up soon // Yamano-san who’s a year older looks like a high schooler

N: I know it’ll stop hurting when we have sex / then you’ll have less to worry about // I’ll try hard // so don’t leave me all alone
K: Stop it!

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N: Kanda-chan…

K: Let’s go // you’ll catch cold

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Father: phew…

F: Masaki / you’re wet, here’s a towel…

F: Masaki // what’s wrong?

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I: Nothing…
F: That face doesn’t say nothing
I: Leave me alone!

F: Don’t be a jerk because you don’t want me to worry about you! // we’re family and I care about you!

I: Family…?

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I: We were broken from the beginning // we’re only connected by blood // we’re only like dolls in a set, trying to keep a family together only in structure

I: We still managed even without a mother or a father // we should just randomly decide how we’re going to live as things happen

I: You could leave us because you thought that way too right? // and now you’re telling me you’re worried about “family”? // you said a family is too much of a hassle

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I: So let’s mind out own business / that way we’re peaceful // we don’t have to worry about anything // that’s perfect right?
F: Masaki!

F: Don’t say something so helpless… // if you say that // the family becomes so meaningless…
I: It is meaningless

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M: Here

F: Oh / thanks
M: sure
I: Stop it Minami

M: eh?
I: No one said they wanted tea

I: If we want tea we’ll get it ourselves // I don’t want any

M: Ok…

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K: Hah

I: What?

K: You’re so immature // Ikeuchi

K: If you don’t want any just don’t drink it / you just want everyone’s attention // and you’re moping because no one will agree with you

K: You only get mad at your father because you rely on him / you’re hoping that he can protect you
I: Kanda!

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I: I don’t need someone like you…! // telling me anything!

K: Yeah don’t let me // someone like me

K: When your mother left you were worried / we even skipped school to look for her // you still search for her in crowds // you’re angry because you’re so worried about your father and sister

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K: Even if you deny it // if you have someone you worry about / a family is a family // don’t worry

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M: Stay healthy and eat your food // will you come back when you feel better?
F: Yeah… / watch out for yourself

F: I feel really bad… / about leaving you both // even though it’s like this now

F: I always think about you two…
I: Old man // there’s no room for you even if you come home

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M: Oniichan!
I: We’re doing fine so you don’t have to feel responsible for anything

I: If you decide to come home because of reasons other than responsibility or necessity… // just call so I can prepare your room or something

M: Oniichan!
F: It’s okay

M: Father…
F: It’s okay

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I: Kanda… / Minami what are you two // going to do now

M: We… // we’re going to date! // I don’t care if you’re against it!
K: How?

M: Kanda-kun…
K: You’re selfish // such a child

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M: But I…
K: Shh

K: Can you not raise your voice here / if people find out about us, I’ll get arrested // did you know that?

I: Kanda…
K: I have to always worry about everyone around us

K: I can’t tell anyone / and we have nothing to talk about…we’re just physical // can you call that a relationship?

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K: I can’t… // be your guardian

I: Kanda…
K: Ikeuchi / if you had been more responsible / this wouldn’t have happened

K: I can’t / continue playing this little game

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M: Ha…

I: Minami…

M: Don’t make it my fault because I’m a child… // it’s not fair

M: You did something you’re not supposed to do to a child so you’re upset // and now you’re making it all my fault / because I’m a child

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M: You’re making excuses that I was relying on you // but you thought it felt good

M: Aren’t I right!? // It felt good? // Don’t degrade me! // take responsibility as an adult!

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I: Kanda…

I: I’m still trying to decide / if I should leave her up to you even if she has to face the shame // I might be the only one that can stop you two

I: But don’t make me or Minami decide // you can’t say you’re going to break up with her because I was against it or because she’s making you take responsibility // what do you want? // don’t purposely make Minami mad, you make the decision

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M: Kanda-kun

M: I know I’m just a child / and I’ll cause trouble // but don’t think my feelings are a lie / I’m serious // I really… // really.. // so don’t leave me alone…

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K: Ok… // I got it… // I got it so stop crying…

The train is arriving on track 2

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M: This train?
I: Yeah // come on we’re getting on

K: Oh… / there’s still time
I: Hm?

K: Lunch / I’m grabbing some food
I: Yeah?

K: I’ll meet you on the train!

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M: Kanda-kun’s taking a while
I: Yeah
M: I hope he’s okay

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I: Minami // I don’t think he’s coming

M: What?

I: I’m not lying // I know the kinds of things he does since we were kids // he can’t fool me / that idiot

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I: He intends on never seeing you again // this is the path he chose / what do you want to do?

M: I… // I… // I…

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I: Minami

I: You will be… / my sister forever

M: Uuuhh

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M: Sob // sob // sob // sob

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M: This… // and an eggplant // and the radish

Here you are // good girl
M: Haha thank you