Reserved for Arienai! Group.
Thanks for your help up until today.
We have decided to put an end to our lives as of today.
Rina: No, I bet the chances of failing is high. / And I don’t want to suffer.
Michi: The person who runs us over / might have a child our age…
Rina: If we think too hard, it’s going to get complicated
Rina: But / I don’t want to cause trouble for 300 people by stopping traffic and have people read about us angrily in the newspaper
I guess we have to do our wrists…
Yeah, we don’t want to involve others / but I feel bad of having to let him clean up after us
Dad died / when we couldn’t even call him “dad” yet. // When our new dad came, our mom left us a little while after that / when we were in grade school.
Michi and I are twins / but we’re very different types. // “Dad” is lucky // He has / so much fun with us both.
Rina: Let’s go home and take a bath, / while “dad” isn’t there.
Michi: And we should choose our favorite clothes?
14 years…that’s pretty short, right?
You think? I dunno…
Michi: I wonder why I’m so sleepy… / Rina, can I sleep for now?
Rina: Yeah, you can lean on me
Michi sleeps a lot these days
Rina: Even at a time like this. // I’m sleep deprived too…
I don’t know if she’s understanding the situation completely
Rina: I think the one-piece dress you bought at Pinky the other day looks best on you. // What should I wear? The blue camisole or the white knit with the logo in it?
Michi: I think the yellow one you lent me is a good one
I bet they both look like blood
Rina: It was fun // when mom was here and we all took a bath together
Michi: You promised you wouldn’t talk about that
Rina: Michi… // I’m glad you’re here with me, Michi // So, it was a pretty bad life // but it had it’s good moments thanks to you
Michi: Same here
Rina: Is there // anything you wanted to eat or do?
Michi: I haven’t had any desires like that for a while. // Isn’t it the same / for you too?
Isn’t it the same / for you too?
It’s almost time. Are you ready?
Rina: I wonder why / I’m not scared at all
Because I’m with Michi?
Michi: What’s wrong?
Rina: A stain…
Michi: Oh, maybe it was when I borrowed it…sorry
Rina: Ugh…You did the same on my skirt the other day too…but whatever // just be careful next time ok?
Michi: Rina? // Do you really plan on dying? // Next time… / “next time” doesn’t exist // do you understand?
Rina: I can’t help it if I don’t want to die
The end of the summer vacation
Rina: what? // your period?
Rina: wow / really? / congrats!
We were very slow to get our periods // as if our bodies were trying not to become adults. // As all of our classmates started to look different // I was worried that our bodies were becoming something different compared to others.
Michi: Rina… // it’s nothing to be happy about! / I might…get pregnant! // hey! / what should I do?
Rina: It is something to be happy about // Michi / it means that you’re alive and growing
All those girls that say “My mom made red rice and it pissed me off” can go to hell // Children think it is only natural for parents to love them // and they get angry when that love isn’t given to them in the way they want it. // Michi / I // was really // happy
Rina: Let’s run away // Yeah, if we tell someone they might help us. // It’ll be better than the way things are now.
Michi: What // what are you saying? / Tell someone? // That our father is playing with every part of our body? // No! / I don’t want anyone to know / I rather…
Michi: I rather die
Rina: If you didn’t think of that / I probably would never have thought of dying. // Nope, / I always thought about running away from here
Rina: Why do we have to be the ones to die! / We should kill him! / But you said you didn’t want to… // Because you’re scared, // is it my fault?
Because Michi is here / I can do anything // but // because Michi is here / I can’t be free
Do I think // Michi is in my way? // If she wasn’t here I could have run away. // But // if she wasn’t here I might have lost my mind sooner.
Michi: Sorry // I’m sorry Rina // I’ve suffered everyday too, / but if running away fails and it gets even worse / I can’t keep my sanity. // I’m scared that it will get worse if we run away / so I thought if we split our suffering it would be okay. // I knew / that you couldn’t leave me and I kept you here
Michi: I’m sleepy…
Michi: Sorry…I’m going to sleep // I can do it alone when I wake up // so you can go / sorry to leave you alone…
Rina: No… / what are you saying?
Oh no // she no longer has the will to live // her body // is running away from life
Dear dad in heaven,
If you were still alive none of this would have happened (I’m going to hold a small grudge against you), // but // I am grateful that you were able to give me someone to feel more love for than myself.
That person, Michi, says “it’s over” // but Michi and I haven’t even started anything // so I don’t think anything is over. // It’s okay // to //believe that right?
What I am doing / might just be delaying our death a little bit // and we might just end up having to find a “new dad” to depend on
Rina: Michi / wake up / walk to the station with me
I might think of Michi // as a burden again
Rina: come on…
But look // if we had jumped in front of that car we wouldn’t have known // how beautiful the moon is tonight